A Journey Unseen

So, on this Saturday night I have been led by God after reading some stories on a blog created by a Sister in Christ named Le'Nae , her blog is http://lenaejenkins.com . She reminisced on several past stories that God allowed her to go through to realize that HE was the ONLY one she truly needed & the ONLY One who could LOVE her as she deserved. Now, you are probably thinking to yourself What does that have to do with me ? WELL, As I was reading and remembering my own scenarios God led me to share some of the things that I have been through and the Journey that it took for me to be where I am today. Most probably know me as herbeautyspeaks but, my first name is Destiny. & First/Foremost I must say that WITHOUT GOD, I WOULDNT BE WHERE I AM TODAY. WITHOUT GOD, I WOULDN'T BE ABLE TO SPEAK ON SOME THINGS TO HELP SOMEONE ELSE. WITHOUT GOD, I WOULD SURELY STILL BE LOST. Okay, now that we have gotten that out of the way, I want people to know that it wasn't always easy to be who God has created me to be. It wasn't always easy to share my story with those I do not know. It wasn't easy to believe that I was beautiful. It wasn't always easy uplifting and being the one to advise others when I was the one who truly needed help. Just know that it wasn't always easy. I truly believe that God allows things to arise to show us of all that we couldn't quite see so clearly before. When these things were occurring not for one moment did I think that perhaps God was allowing these events to happen so that I could help someone else later on. Perhaps , I was stronger than I thought. Perhaps, I would one day learn how to whole heartily LOVE who I was with all of the flaws, imperfections, included. Perhaps, if I would've known all of that back then what I know now wouldn't have had such a huge impact on me (in a good way of course). I will be highlighting experiences that mostly occurred when I was a teen, those late years of being an adolescent.

So, let's get to it ... I come from humble beginnings, let me just add that God seriously has been there saving me ever since the day I was born. Born a premature baby who doctors attempted to "predict and say" that I wouldn't even live to see another day. Whew!!! BOYYYY, Were they WRONG !

I Thank God daily that He saved and healed me from all that I have gone through. I didn't always see myself as the individual I now am. I didn't always think that I was beautiful, there were nights where I would continuously cry myself to sleep because I allowed the ways of the enemy to deceive me and trap me into believing that God was disgusted of me based upon my wrong decisions and choices. That was a TOTAL LIE !!! God definitely LOVES YOU and wants to see you genuinely secure and at peace with who you are, where you've been, and although we don't know what the future holds HE wants us to know that HE still has it ALL under control. Any who, looking back at it, God knew from the start that I would be who I am today. He even knew that I would go through all that I did , (stubborn wasn't even the word that defined me back then*) .. But, eventually the lies started to strongly affect my thoughts, and perception. I began to get depressed in the middle of my teenage years. I jumped into the holes that the Enemy planned for me to get lost in. My insecurities continued to fester. 

You know, It is a fact when people say that you can make your brain think anything you want. That's why you have to be careful of the company you keep and the things you allow to influence you, etc. But I let the choices of those that I know get to me. I didn't think that I was worthy. Thoughts started to come about and take over my spirit.

I allowed the pain to make me numb to my feelings. I blanked out for a while forgetting that God saved me and that it was destined for me to live. I lost a sight of who I was and most importantly WHOSE I Was. It took years for me to trust God the way He wanted me to. It took years for me to not allow the ways of the past to control me. It took years for me to understand that God truly has a divine purpose for everything. It tooks years for me to be able to LOOK into the mirror and be genuinely Grateful for all that I was (physically , spiritually, etc) .. Thankful to say that if I didn't go through those times amongst many others I wouldn't have known my own strength just as Whitney Houston said in her song "I Didnt Know My Own Strength".

I think she said it best. When those hard times come about at that given moment since we are humans we never really know exactly why those experiences happen. But, through GOD we are able to gain understanding. He knows that once you realize why He allowed you to stumble, and mess up (prayerfully), you would Thank HIM and Bring ALL of the Glory to His Name. Knowing that without HIM, you wouldn't have been able to make it through.

I'll leave you with these scriptures to meditate on if you are having any rough times. As well as you can always Email me at herbeautyspeakss@gmail.com if need be.

John 13:7 says, You do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand.

Psalm 91:2 says, I will say of the Lord, He Iis my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.

Jeremiah 29:11 says, For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.

I pray that all that I have shared with you blesses you tremendously. I pray that you will see things the way God sees it. I pray that you will allow God to be all that He is to YOU. I pray that you will stay blessed.


Much Love & Peace to You,

- Destiny